my PTSD/trauma & anxiety story

  • Published: 29 December 2019
  • Hi my DIY babes, today's video is something I've been thinking about making for years now, but honestly wasn't really sure how to even start. I've referenced my anxiety in the past in smaller ways, but I want to tell you my full story today and let you know that I am right here with you in this daily battle. My past has made me who I am, and I hope that shedding a little more light on mental health and telling my story can make even just one person feel a little less alone. I love you, believe you and KNOW that things get better.

    Helpful Links!
    National Helpline, 1-800-662-HELP (4357)
    National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255
    ♡ XO lauren


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Comments • 2 101

  • Madisyn Wright
    Madisyn Wright  14 hours back

    This is SO weird...but I've been struggling really badly recently with emetophobia and my anxiety. I just started therapy. I was watching the Reality House series and felt a weird connection with you and decided to look at your channel. This is the first video I saw and clicked on, and I finally found someone who can relate to the severity of my emetophobia and even acknowledge that it exists. Thank you so much for this. Your story was so helpful.

    • Helen Phillips
      Helen Phillips  16 hours back

      My anxiety is involved with both emetophobia and agoraphobia as well❤️ so glad to hear you talking about it🥰

      • Love Kate
        Love Kate  2 days back

        I just started crying because I’ve never heard anyone else open up and I feel alone because everyone thinks anxiety and depression is a joke. Every kid in my school has told me they have anxiety.

        • Love Kate
          Love Kate  2 days back

          I think therapy would help me a lot because I feel like I have nobody to talk to about my anxiety but I get anxious when I think about asking my parents about it. I went to therapy in 3rd grade but we eventually stopped because I had anxiety attacks about believing my therapist was going to tell everyone everything personal I told her

          • Positive Equine
            Positive Equine  2 days back

            I have emetophobia and it SUCKS! I also have a smaller case of agoraphobia which comes with my fear of being sick. I thought that I was the only one who carries medicine and bags in my purse incase i'm sick. It has definitely made my life harder and I hope someday I wont have it. When I was younger I wouldn't even leave the house for the fear that I would be sick!

            • Kyle Atkinson
              Kyle Atkinson  4 days back


              • Phil i
                Phil i  4 days back

                i want to give this a million likes so everyone becomes aware!!!

                • Phil i
                  Phil i  4 days back

                  sorry sorry sorry tmi, but are you on hormonal birth control? i am and am now wondering if going off it will improve my mental health (hopefully the anxiety and panics!) im curious to others experiences

                  • Joseph Idek
                    Joseph Idek  4 days back

                    You will get threw it, I have faith in you

                    • Karly Edge
                      Karly Edge  4 days back

                      Thank you so much! I have emetophobia too. No one understands it! I carry water and tums everywhere! And I can’t thank you enough for posting this. We are strong and can get though this

                      • Jessica Suzanne
                        Jessica Suzanne  4 days back

                        I have anxiety and PTSD too 😥😥 And also depression.. It sucks but I take medication for it

                        • Isabelle Chiang
                          Isabelle Chiang  5 days back

                          Thank you so much for making this video. My anxiety started 3 months ago, and I have been feeling alone ever since. Thank you for sharing your story Lauren. xoxo

                          • Olivia Hallett
                            Olivia Hallett  5 days back

                            If anyone goes at you they would have to go through me because you are a queen no matter what happens you are amazing I love you😘❤

                            • Ava Avila
                              Ava Avila  5 days back

                              Thank you so very much I feel so much better

                              • Lilly Paman
                                Lilly Paman  6 days back

                                Now reading ptsd I feel like I feel those things and your going through so much stuff Lauren and I just love how strong you are and you inspire me so much and more now ❤️thank you for being you!

                                • Anna Hendry élève
                                  Anna Hendry élève  6 days back

                                  thank you for sharing this and opening up with us. we love and support you always 💖💖💖

                                  • Juliette Rousseau
                                    Juliette Rousseau  6 days back

                                    this is such a wonderful video I got a lot of emotions during your video maybe making me realize a lot about my self

                                    thanks a lot <3<3<3

                                    • Eva Lu
                                      Eva Lu  6 days back

                                      There’s a book called Guts by Raina Telgemeier which is a comic about her story with emetophobia and how she talked to therapists and how people helped her throughout her journey which is cool. It really helped me see that it’s a real problem and can take over someone’s life persay. I don’t have it personally, but one of my close friends does and this book let me see her situation better.

                                      • Eva Lu
                                        Eva Lu  6 days back

                                        There’s a book called Guts by Raina Telgemeier which is a comic about her story with emetophobia and how she talked to therapists and how people helped her throughout her journey which is cool. It really helped me see that it’s a real problem and can take over someone’s life persay. I don’t have it personally, but one of my close friends does and this book let me see her situation better.

                                        • Amy Brown
                                          Amy Brown  6 days back

                                          OMG... now i know why i dont like going out to clubs and drink (they make me feel sick, so i avoid it)..and dont really like going to fairs bc looking at the rides makes me feel like im going to be sick.

                                          • Wiegner Kids
                                            Wiegner Kids  6 days back

                                            I'm glad for people like you because I have epalepsy and some people make fun of me and people like you are always with me

                                            • Mama Makes Music
                                              Mama Makes Music  7 days back

                                              My uncle has epilepsy, and I've been with him alone through 3 grand mal seizures. I made the call to 911 each time, and been strong, but as soon as he left in the ambulance, I was EXHAUSTED and so drained that I fell asleep for at least 3 hours each time.

                                              • Miles Merriman
                                                Miles Merriman  7 days back

                                                They were such a cute couple

                                                • Deborah D
                                                  Deborah D  7 days back

                                                  Lauren your hair is so beautiful 😍. Keep making your videos. Follow your heart❤️🎤with your amazing voice.

                                                  • Malia 4
                                                    Malia 4  7 days back

                                                    I have emetaphobia too

                                                    • Isabella._. Garcia
                                                      Isabella._. Garcia  1 weeks back

                                                      Lauren looks like she is wearing 2 outfits at the same time

                                                      • Avary Bartholomay
                                                        Avary Bartholomay  1 weeks back

                                                        I'm so so so incredibly glad someone has spoken out about emetophobia. I have a horrible fear of vomiting too. Just writing the word made me anxious.😂😂

                                                        • AJ the Bluejay
                                                          AJ the Bluejay  1 weeks back

                                                          this came up in my recommended and ohhhh my gosh I couldn't be more thankful. Currently battling crippling emetophobia that ive had for over 15 years, listening to someone talk about their shared struggle with this strange and uncommon phobia is so encouraging. thank you soooo much for sharing.

                                                          • salsero doscientosseis
                                                            salsero doscientosseis  1 weeks back

                                                            thank you for sharing! I am glad you are strong to talk about it. it is part of the healing process =D Just Keep Swimming, just keep swimming =D

                                                            • Kellie Ann Morris
                                                              Kellie Ann Morris  1 weeks back

                                                              Love you this video is amazing your a very strong woman

                                                              • KO ISABELLA EMMY
                                                                KO ISABELLA EMMY  1 weeks back

                                                                I Have always being afraid of people vomiting, and I thought it was just a weird phobia. But then I watched this video and I learned about emetophobia and it has has really changed me although I’m only still 12. Love you Lauren, we can all get through this together.

                                                                • MADELINE J
                                                                  MADELINE J  1 weeks back

                                                                  literally yesterday i went to see a therapist my first session like ever... and i find it weird i've never pictured my self talking to someone because i keep things to my therapist told me that i have PTSD, anxiety and depression and it was weird hearing those words and for awhile i knew i had those and i hate saying that i do have them but i do and i just have to deal with it.. thank you for sharing your story it helps alot!

                                                                  • Hannah Guzman
                                                                    Hannah Guzman  1 weeks back

                                                                    My mom has Epilepsy and she’s had seizures ever since i was little and It was always scary for me

                                                                    • Hannah Guzman
                                                                      Hannah Guzman  1 weeks back

                                                                      Reese Eryn we were

                                                                    • Reese Eryn
                                                                      Reese Eryn  1 weeks back

                                                                      Hannah Guzman wow. I hope you guys were ok

                                                                    • Hannah Guzman
                                                                      Hannah Guzman  1 weeks back

                                                                      Reese Eryn I saw my mom have her first seizure when she was driving me to my first day of school

                                                                    • Reese Eryn
                                                                      Reese Eryn  1 weeks back

                                                                      Hannah Guzman I get it. I saw my moms first seizure in first grade at my school parking lot.

                                                                    • Hannah Guzman
                                                                      Hannah Guzman  1 weeks back

                                                                      Reese Eryn it’s tough sometimes

                                                                  • Alex Smitz
                                                                    Alex Smitz  1 weeks back

                                                                    What medication do you take if you don't mind me asking?

                                                                    • Sarah More of talking
                                                                      Sarah More of talking  1 weeks back

                                                                      Will you post another video about metal Health

                                                                    • Ana Oliveira
                                                                      Ana Oliveira  1 weeks back

                                                                      I feel that you just described every panic attack I've ever had. You just helped me understand a lot better my own story. Thank you so much for sharing. Lots of love from Brazil <3

                                                                      • Everyone is a know it all

                                                                        Wow....such a life changing vid. Thanks for nothing.

                                                                        • aaliyah.dancel
                                                                          aaliyah.dancel  2 weeks back

                                                                          I love how you have the energy to post constantly when you have a lot on your mind.

                                                                          • Team Unlimited
                                                                            Team Unlimited  2 weeks back

                                                                            i have emeyophobia too. it sucks..

                                                                            • DaphneGsell
                                                                              DaphneGsell  2 weeks back

                                                                              I can relate to this so much! My freshman year of college my brother got diagnosed with kidney failure at age 21. I had my first anxiety attack during class, I felt like I was going to pass out and my fingers went numb. Fast forward three years with anxiety I experienced two seizures myself. I currently have blood pressure spikes and they told me I’m likely to seize again. It’s scary, but I’m so happy to know better how to control my anxiety. I literally talk to myself in my head and tell myself how important I am in life. Love your story Lauren! It’s so helpful!

                                                                              • Catie
                                                                                Catie  2 weeks back

                                                                                I live well with bipolar. I was diagnosed with Bipolar type 1 when I was 20. I take medication daily and I have been in therapy for almost 10 years! If you or a loved one feels unlike themselves there is HOPE on the other side. I'm still here. I learned "You are worthy of LOVE." Reach out to people who have a good judgement and are trustworthy. Even when it feels impossible to continue and your head feels heavy... take your day hour by by day. To whoever reads this comment: I'm sending you support and strength your way! Xx

                                                                                • Payton Meyer
                                                                                  Payton Meyer  2 weeks back

                                                                                  she is so well spoken so impressive

                                                                                  • Payton Meyer
                                                                                    Payton Meyer  2 weeks back

                                                                                    while my disorders are less severe, I've never understood and related to anything more. Thank you

                                                                                    • shel bud
                                                                                      shel bud  2 weeks back

                                                                                      I recently just started vomiting from having spikes of anxiety. My heart starts to race and then I get nauseous and my mouth starts salivating, then I vomit. It’s gotten to the point where I’m scared to be in certain positions and around certain people that give me anxiety because I’ll puke. I know how you feel girl and I thank you for spreading awareness of it because I didn’t know it was a thing until now.

                                                                                      • Elyse Katagihara
                                                                                        Elyse Katagihara  2 weeks back

                                                                                        The agoraphobia section hit me hard had no idea that’s what I was experiencing

                                                                                        • Ryan Mullen
                                                                                          Ryan Mullen  2 weeks back

                                                                                          My little brother had a seizure when he was 1 year and 7 months

                                                                                          • Ryan Mullen
                                                                                            Ryan Mullen  1 weeks back


                                                                                          • AR-UA
                                                                                            AR-UA  2 weeks back

                                                                                            Ryan Mullen pray for the young goat 🐐

                                                                                        • Annabelle Po
                                                                                          Annabelle Po  2 weeks back

                                                                                          I felt sick 24/7. Thank you for letting me know someone knows how that feels.

                                                                                          • Lisa Snickars
                                                                                            Lisa Snickars  2 weeks back

                                                                                            You are such a strong warrior Lauren❤️💪🏻 I look up to you every single day. You give me hope. And I'm so thankful for that. I'm fighting right beside you❤️❤️